A Spring of New Beginnings (and Hats!)

It has been three weeks since Sadie returned home from her stay at Cleveland Clinic. We have been enjoying getting back into our regular routine. Sadie's scar from surgery is healing up well and her hair is growing back slowly. She received an assortment of spring sun hats from her Grandma. We joke that it is the "Spring of Hats," for Sadie. Being the trendsetter that she is, I'm sure that soon everyone will be wearing them.

The seizures have been holding steady. They are still less intense and frequent than before surgery, but she still has multiple episodes per day. She continues to be quite vocal and active...even a bit hyperactive at times. She particularly likes to kick around and talk around 3:30 am. Once she awakens, it's fruitless to try to get her back to sleep, so we typically pull her into bed with us and just endure the yelling and swatting until one of us gives in and gets up for the day. It's really quite comical...and tortuous. I now understand how sleep deprivation is used as a method of torture.

We have one more week until she is completely weaned off Phenobarbitol, so we are hopeful that the hyperactivity and sleep issues will settle out once her body has adjusted. Anecdotatally speaking, Phenobarbitol is notoriously difficult to wean and can cause all kinds of withdrawl symptoms in kids. We've spoken to many parents who have experienced similar difficulties during their child's wean.

Her doctor mentioned that we have the option of increasing her sleepy medicine (Neurontin) to try to get her to sleep a little longer. But, my mind was having a hard time making that leap...given that she just went through surgery in the hopes of weaning her OFF some of these meds. So, we decided to endure the sleep deprivation for a few more weeks until she is completely weaned off Phenobarbitol. Let's hope we can both keep our sanity until then...

Sadie's therapy schedule has been keeping us quite busy lately. Three days a week she is in the Day Rehab program at the Rehabilitation Institute of Chicago (RIC). She receives Physical Therapy, Occupational Therapy and Speech Therapy in Day Rehab. She also sees her regular therapists through Early Intervention (EI), but we have scaled back a bit with EI until she completes Day the program at RIC. Presently, we think she'll be in Day Rehab for at least two more months. The duration will be based on how well she is doing and how close she is to her pre-surgery baseline.

We've already seen HUGE improvements with her head and trunk control. When she left Cleveland Clinic, her muscles were quite floppy - a wet noodle. Now, she is managing her head quite well. She still needs to be supported while sitting, but that has also improved immensely. The therapists at RIC have ordered a Benik Vest for Sadie to help with her trunk control. Of course, Sadie's will be hot pink!

A bit of good news - we've heard back regarding Sadie's diagnostic testing for a mitochondrial disease, and so far, everything has come back negative. There are still a few tests outstanding, but this is great news.

In the meantime, we are beginning to plan for her two year birthday! It's hard to believe that Sadie will be turning two at the end of the month. Of course, we'll be on the hunt for the perfect hat for the occasion.

The Things You Never Wanted To Know

Parenting is a learning curve. All new parents understand the frustration of figuring out how to care for a new baby, whether it be the meaning of different-sounding cries, recognizing the "poopy-face," or how to assemble those darn Dr. Brown's bottles. However, parenting a child with special needs is a whole other ball of wax. There are quite a few things I've learned since becoming Sadie's mom that I never thought I'd need to know, nor ever wanted to know.

Here is a sampling:
- How to check for placement of an NG tube
- The names of the parking garage cashiers at Children's Memorial Hospital
- mg per kg calculations for Sadie's medicines
- How to put a regulator on an oxygen tank
- The definitions of fancy medical terms like hypsarrhythmia, hemispherectomy, and corpus callosum
- How to turn a hospital chair into a bed

Last week we were introduced to yet another thing that we never wanted to know. I've mentioned previously that a few of Sadie's doctors have questioned whether she has a metabolic or mitochondrial disease in addition to Aicardi Syndrome. Thus far, all the initial testing has come back negative. During our visit to Cleveland Clinic last week, we met with a doctor who specializes in this area. Despite the initial testing coming back negative, he explained that he strongly believes that an additional mitochondrial diagnosis does exist. He equated the initial blood and urine tests to fishing in a pond. Sometimes there are a bunch of fish there, but you don't catch any.

The problem with mitochondrial disease is there isn't a foolproof way to diagnose it, nor are there great treatment options. Diagnostic tests in order of least to most effective include: spinal tap, skin biopsy, and muscle biopsy (cutting a 2-3 inch incision in the thigh to extract about 1 cm of muscle). But even the muscle biopsy can miss a diagnosis 20% of the time. If they DO find that Sadie has a mitochondrial disease, treatment would include a vitamin regimen and some additional supplements to help the mitochondria function more effectively.

So...you're probably asking, what does this mean? Mitochondrial disease is scary stuff. Back to Biology 101, the mitochondria in the cell convert food into energy. When they don't work properly, kids get sicker faster, have a harder time recovering, eventually cells start dying, organs fail...you probably can fill in the rest.

So where does that leave Sadie? The doctor explained that some parents of medically-complex kids just decide to let it be an unanswered question. They just don't want to put their child through the diagnostic tests that may or may not yield results. Other parents do all the testing. Adin and I aren't yet sure what we'll do.

We went to Cleveland seeking some answers about pursuing brain surgery for Sadie, and left with a whole other set of questions. The initial feedback from the doctors is that a mitochondrial disease would not prevent them from doing surgery. There would be additional precautions the docs would take during surgery.

In deciding whether or not to do surgery, a few things the doctors said really hit home for us both. The neurosurgeon said that it is unlikely that the part of the brain they are proposing to remove (right frontal and parietal lobes) is doing anything besides causing seizures due to the extent of malformation. When discussing risks of the surgery, the the head epileptologist pointed out that yes, there are risks to the surgery, but there are also risks to having uncontrolled epilepsy for a lifetime.

So, we are going to pursue brain surgery for Sadie. It hasn't been an easy decision, but we feel like it is her best chance of gaining some seizure control. And, even if we see little or no improvement, at least we will know that we tried everything we could to give her a better quality of life.

In the meantime, we are letting the news about the additional mitochondrial disease settle in before we decide which diagnostic testing we'll pursue, if any. Yet another thing we never wanted to know...but we'll get through it. What would you do it if was your child?