A Better Place To Be

Recently, Adin and I were looking at a few older posts on Sadie's blog. Two years ago, Sadie was hospitalized emergently to start the Ketogenic Diet after having hundreds of seizures per day. One year ago, she was hospitalized again to start ACTH after having seizures every five minutes.  This year, she's recovered from two brain surgeries. Reading those posts was a stark reminder of everything she has been through in her short life. And how, as soon as you think you are in a better place, reality can knock you back down.



Sadie and Daddy enjoying pool time.

Now that she is finished with the Day Rehab program at Rehab Institute of Chicago (RIC), she is continuing with her regular therapy schedule, which includes weekly Physical, Occupational, Speech, Vision and Developmental Therapies. I'm pleased to say that despite recent setbacks, she continues to do well in therapy. Moving at a much slower pace than typically developing kids, obviously, but making progress nonetheless. Recently, her Physical Therapist has been working with Sadie in a Lightgait over a Treadmill, getting her to walk a few steps at a time so her body begins to understand what this feels like.

Additionally, I've been looking to enroll her in aquatic therapy. Aquatic therapy can provide valuable movement for kids who are low tone and struggle with holding up their own body weight. We tried Sadie out in a pool, and she seems to really enjoy it, so we are hopeful we can get her in aquatic therapy soon!

Sadie and Olivia contemplating
the Modern Art.

In spite of a busy therapy schedule, we have found time to do a bit of traveling this summer, as well as getting out and enjoying some Chicago sights. Sadie and her friend, Olivia, recently visited the Art Institute of Chicago to take in the new Modern Art wing. Sadie didn't quite grasp Modernism, she was much more drawn to the Impressionists - Monet, Seurat, and Van Gogh in particular.

We also recently traveled to St. Louis for the 2012 Aicardi Syndrome Family Conference. The Aicardi Syndrome Foundation holds this biennial conference for families with affected daughters. It was such a great opportunity to see old friends and meet new ones - quite a different experience than our first conference, which we attended four weeks after Sadie's diagnosis. This time, we found ourselves to be much more social with the other families, rather than just deer-in-headlights

Medically speaking, Sadie is still being fed the majority of her meals via NG tube. She is allowed a little bit of pureed food each day, which she eats with varying degrees of success. Sometimes she chews well and swallows, other days, the food sits in her mouth and she spits it out. We continue to work with her speech/feeding therapists to improve her eating skills. She was originally scheduled for a repeat swallow study in August, but we've decided to hold off until we find out the results from her recent brain surgery.
As I mentioned in my last post, the cyst fenestration surgery has a 50% change of being successful at alleviating Sadie's hydrocephalus. Sadie is scheduled for a CT scan in mid-September, which will show whether or not surgery was successful. If the fluid is building up in her brain again, she will have to get a shunt (an artificial drain) placed in her brain. We are saying lots of lots of prayers that the surgery WAS successful and she will NOT need this.

Prior to her recent surgery, had switched some of her seizure meds to see if we could gain more seizure control. She is finally completely off Dilantin (yay!), and we had begun a taper of Sabril (Vigabatrin). She also started a new medicine, Zonisimide, which we are still hopeful might provide some seizure relief. However, in light of the recent surgery, everything is on "pause."

Speaking of a better place to be, Adin and I booked our first "alone" vacation since before Sadie was born. We are looking forward to getting away for a few days and know Sadie will be in good hands with Grandma and her Aunt Megan.

We look forward with a mixture of hope and trepidation as we await the results of her brain surgery. She needs your prayers now more than ever.

Mixed Feelings

Sadie on her first visit to
the new Lurie Children's Hospital

Last week was the two year anniversary of Sadie's Aicardi Syndrome diagnosis. Last year, I wrote a blog post about what happened that day and our feelings after we heard the diagnosis. This year, as the anniversary came and went, I found myself having many mixed feelings.

I feel sad as I think about her diagnosis day, but grateful that her diagnosis has taught us what is really important in life.

Anxious about her upcoming swallow study. (As mentioned in a previous post, her May study showed that she aspirated liquid. Since then, she has received all liquid feedings through her NG tube. Sadie will repeat the study in August and based on the results, she may need to get a G-Tube.)

Scared that she might fail this swallow study. Scared that she might pass this swallow study.

Upset as she has been having really intense seizures lately that scare her and cause her to cry. Disheartened that Sadie's current seizure medicines aren't working as well as we'd like.

Hopeful as we start a new seizure medicine this week. (On Thursday, we will start a new medicine called Zonisimide (Zonegran). This medicine has been recommended by a few doctors who have evaluated Sadie. Additionally, it seems to have yielded positive results with other Aicardi girls.)

Sad as dear friends, a fellow Aicardi family, relocate from Chicago to New York at the end of the month. Grateful that this diagnosis has brought them into our lives.

Pi**ed as I flip the TV channels and hear the announcer on TLC's "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" say, "...even without any prenatal care, the baby came out completely healthy." (I resist the urge to throw a shoe at the TV.)

Sad (again) as I hear of another Chicago-area family who recently received an Aicardi Syndrome diagnosis for their newborn daughter.

Happy, thankful and amazed at the generous, kindhearted people we continue to meet through our new church community.

Envious of the old colleague I met for lunch last week who has a fabulous new job. Yearning to be back in the career field. At the same time, grateful not to have the stresses that go along with juggling work responsibilities.

Blessed and thankful that I am able to stay at home to care for Sadie.

Amazed at how much equipment costs, especially when you put the words "special needs" in front of the description - as we finalize our purchase of Sadie's special needs swing for our backyard and a special needs jogging stroller.

And finally...HOPE that things WILL eventually get better.

Stronger

Sadie weight-bearing in the LiteGait.

Sadie is going into her third month of the Day Rehab program at RIC (Rehabilitation Institute of Chicago.) She has been attending RIC for three days a week/two hours a day. During this time, she gets physical therapy, occupational therapy and speech therapy. While it has been an intensely busy few months, we couldn't be more pleased with her progress.

Her head and trunk control have improved significantly - and she can even sit with very little assistance. During speech therapy, she is working on communication by using the switch - shown in the photo to the right. Knowing her preference for pop music a la Beyonce and Katy Perry, her sweet speech therapist put a photo of Katy Perry on her switch. Each time Sadie presses the switch, we play music and have a dance party.


Sadie's switch with Katy's photo

Unfortunately, there are a few skills which Sadie used to practice, that she has since lost - like reaching for and grabbing a toy, bringing her hands to midline, and rolling over. Even before her surgery, she stopped demonstrating these skills. We are hopeful that with the help of her therapists that she will be able to regain these abilities.

In addition to her therapies at RIC, we are still working with her home therapists through the Early Intervention (EI) program. We recently visited our neighborhood park with Sadie's home PT, where Sadie experienced sitting on a swing and sliding down a slide - with the help of Mommy and Karen, her PT.

Sadie exploring the neighborhood park

While she is making great strides with her therapy, Sadie continues to struggle with daily seizures. As I've mentioned, we have seen some improvement post-surgery- particularly with the duration and severity of her seizures. Unfortunately, she's still having about the same number of seizures per day.

So, we are again in discussions with her doctor about switching up seizure meds. Our first order of business is to try to wean her off a few of these meds (she is currently on five - Vigabatrin, Keppra, Dilantin, Clonazapam, and Neurontin) - not to mention her Ketogenic Diet. Weaning the meds that aren't working will allow us greater flexibility to try new things. The challenge is figuring out what IS and IS NOT working.



Snoozing at the Zoo

Her blood draw a few weeks ago showed that her Dilantin level was a bit low. So, upon her doctor's recommendation, we are going to try weaning that first. If we can get her off Dilantin without upsetting the apple cart, then we are going to try a new medicine called Zonisimide (Zonegran). Zonisimide has been recommended for Sadie by a few doctors. So, we're hoping that it will work well for her. But first...a five-week wean off Dilantin. I never said things happened quickly.

In the meantime, Sadie experienced her first visit to the Zoo while visiting friends in Milwaukee. Of course, she spent most of the trip napping, but she did see a few of the animals. Mr. Cheetah made an appearance right in front of the window where Sadie was looking - and I think he caught her eye!

So, as Sadie's therapy sessions at RIC begin to wind down this month, we'll have a bit more free time to enjoy the warm summer weather, and to get her outside practicing some of her new skills!