Home Sweet Home. Sleep Sweet Sleep.

Sadie has been home from the hospital for about a week. She is still struggling with kicking this recent respiratory virus. At her pediatrician's request, she is now the proud owner of a pulse oximeter and a nebulizer machine. We will use the pulse-ox at home to monitor her O2 levels should she get sick again. We've been using the nebulizer machine to give her albuterol breathing treatments three times a day. We'll continue with the treatments until the virus works its way out and her breathing returns to normal.

While in the hospital, we finally weaned Sadie off of one seizure medicine. While Clobazam looked promising at first, it seemed to be having an adverse affect, as Sadie's seizures went up with each increase in dosage. Once we backed off the dosage, her seizure activity went down. We also started Sadie on Dilantin when she was having a rough time with seizures at the hospital. I hesitate to say that her current seizure medication cocktail (dilantin, vigabatrin, topomax and clonazapam) seems to be showing some improvement. The seizures are at their lowest level. She still has episodes daily, but we've gone from 20+ seizures a day down to 3-5. Our next step is to slowly wean a few of these meds that we're not entirely sure are working, something we've been wanting to do for quite some time.

We also received some troubling news a few months ago that I didn't feel comfortable blogging about at the time. The doctor noticed some new brain abnormalities in Sadie's recent MRI. According to the doctor, there were a few areas that showed some "disbursed white matter." She said the changes looked consistent with a mitochondrial or metabolic disorder. "Instead of her Aicardi diagnosis?" I asked. "In addition to her Aicardi diagnosis," she responded. Wonderful.

This time around, I did no googling, no researching...I simply just ignored the fact that our daughter was being tested for an additional disease and kept on living. As a friend so wisely stated, "no point in going down paths that aren't yours."

I've come to the conclusion that we are the big losers when it comes to the battle of the odds. If a medication has a extremely rare side effect, Sadie is bound to get it. As it turns out, that's what the doctors think is happening with these MRI abnormalities. So far, all the mitochondrial and metabolic tests have come back within normal ranges. So that leaves the medicine. Apparently, one of Sadie's seizure medications, Vigabatrin, can cause MRI abnormalities that are similar to those shown in Sadie's MRI. The problem occurs with high doses and when children are very young (check, check). The good news is these abnormalities often revert back to normal once the medication is weaned. So, the plan is to slowly get her off vigabatrin and hope it is a transient finding and the MRI goes back to its original state.

We are overjoyed to be home after our 7-day stay at Children's Memorial. Sadie has been delightful this week. Smiling, chatting, happier than we've ever seen her. She dove headfirst into her therapies this week and did a great job. The picture above was taken during one of her monthly music therapy sessions. She liked the rain stick toy, but she liked her therapist's diamond ring even more. Smart girl.

The only trouble we've had with her is sleep. The girl simply doesn't sleep. And when I say that, I mean she is up about every hour at night. I found that one side effect of dilantin is insomnia. However, I'm not willing to give up seizure control for sleep. Insomnia combined with the coughing make for long nights for the McCann clan. We've been encouraged by her doctors to explore melatonin, which is a mild, naturally-occurring sleep aid for children. With all the medicine that she's on, we've been hesitant to add one more thing...but give us a few more nights and we may be there. For now, we thank God for espresso.

Fourth Time's a Charm. Exhaling.

Well, things are getting better. We thought we'd be much more excited, but the way in which things came about put a damper on Sadie's progress.

The past few weeks have been rough. After the new year, Sadie's seizures continued to get worse, to the point that she was having very little awake time when she wasn't having a seizure. After experiencing three clusters of seizures in an hour, I spoke with her doctor about changing up her medicines (again). We had been increasing Depakote to see if we could gain more seizure control, but obviously this strategy was not working. The doctor has decided to abandon Depakote, and add Clobazam (now Sadie's fourth seizure medication).

While many doctors use Clobazam for seizure control, it is not yet FDA approved in the US, which means we have to go through a Canadian pharmacy for the medicine and pay out of pocket. While this is not ideal, we are more than willing to do it if it means that it will help Sadie. Until the medicine comes in from Canada, we are using Clonazapam as a bridge. Sadie's first few days on her new medicine were trying. The good news is, she is having fewer seizures, the bad news is she was so drowsy from the medicine that it was hard for her to even take her bottle. Our hope is that once we start weaning her off these other medicines, she will become more alert and interactive.

Sadie's therapies continue to progress quite well (that is when she is awake for them). Her reach and grasp has improved quite a bit with help from her Occupational Therapist. Last week I picked Sadie up and she promptly reached out and grabbed my hoop earring. I had to lay her down on the floor to get her to let go! I guess sometimes teaching her to reach and grab has it's consequences.

Bowel movements have become much better as well. She receives a "laxative cocktail" once a day which consists of half a Senna, a teaspoon of Miralax, and a teaspoon of milk of magnesia. We will have a poo-nami (as we like to call it) every 5-6 days, but the past few times she's gone without the help of a suppository.

Thanks to Easter Seals, we've also placed orders for Sadie's first pieces of special adaptive equipment. She is soon to be the proud owner of a Kid Kart XPress Pediatric Stroller, a Rifton Bath Chair, and a XPanda Feeding Chair. While these names may not mean much to many of you, the equipment will be a huge help for Sadie so that she can be positioned properly while being transported, bathed, and fed.

We are taking a few deep breaths now that we have better seizure control. As we venture into 2011, we hope and pray that this new medicine will continue to work for Sadie - controlling her seizures while limiting the side effects.